DECEMBER

SO i had this dream....
i left South Carolina in a hurry back to Michigan. first i was with my dad and he was yelling at me and making me clean everything. then i went to see a few of my friends,tyler herrman alexandra and ramon(idk why it was just them but i cant control what i dream) they were all really happy to see me. and was glad to be with them again. but i was still aggravated at the fact that i had to deal with my dad , and then i relized that most all of my really awesome friends like thos three wouldnt even be going to the same school as me. and i also remembered that since i was in such a hurry to leave SC that i never said goodbye to my new friends. then everything kinda just hit me and i started crying. i thot to myself why did i want to come back so bad when i was so miserable??? not only that but i was never going to see my NEW friends again....
so then i woke up and i relized i was still in south carolina.
the dream helped me see that my new friends are important too and i love them ^_^
it isnt so bad here and i can find a way to be happy.
however i still miss my old friends VERY VERY much. i day dream about them in class and at home almost everyday.
i wont give up on trying to come visit them!!
the pic is me with marc and alec. marc is one of the ppl i would deffinatley miss the most if i left. and alec is superly awesome too!! they are both great to hang out with, and deff. my best friends.

Oficially November.

I like south carolina. :] it has nice weather for the most part and i have a good social life so far. im trying as best i can to stay on everyones good side so i dont have anyones problems. and i KNOW ofcorse you cant please everybody but thats when you just smile keep your mouth shut and walk away. Even though i like it here very much i stilllll miss home. altho it seems ill never get to go back and visit. ugh. idk why its so hard for me to let go of but it just is and i cant change it.
i need to find my happy place. i still havent exactly found it yet....=\ im sure to ppl reading this they dont really understand what i mean by that but i need my happy place.
i keep telling my mom to get me some "happy pills" but she like keeps ignoring me. idk whatever......ill just keep acting like a bitch.

Hellooo Helloooo

I just randomly decided to make a new post. because tyler was complaining about how i havent made one in a long time.
haha. lol
well my hommcoming was last night. it was pretty fun!! i totally have school spirit for my new high school. being a freshman is annoying sometimes. x.x but its kinda kool.
im glad im finally in highschool.
ive been really upset latley. because my mom said i cant visit michigan on christmas break. thats really not kool. but i told her i didnt want anything else for christas. and even though i know i probly cant go. im still going to say i dont want anything. because i Ddont i mean i dont even care that the new harry potter movie is comming out. and if you knew me. you would relize that i must REALLY want to go to MI. SO while being here in south carolina. ive made alot of new friends. they are pretty awesome ^_^
one is my best friend marc.(in the pic above) were like super close. i always steel his slipknot sweater!!! lol ^_^
hes my emo buddy heheheh!!!!! :P
i have other awesome friends too that i just randomly met and started hanging out with. :D

high school

high school is big! lol like wooooow
its kool so far but i havent gotten real close to annyone yet so that suxx.. no one knows me real well.
im waiting for things to settle down , and trying to get used to the school.
igess ill se what happens..........o.o

hey

hi, good day today =]
so far....
i know im going to be so bored later....i always am. i cant wait for school but im so scared o.o
its been so long since ive had to walk into a school not knowing a single person there. im used to having friends. ill feel so out of place >.< it seems like since i want school to get here its purposly taking that much longer. its driving me insane.
ive gotten so much more into rock now =D i love it and i love drving down the road having it blasting so the whole world can hear it ^-^ its pretty fun specialy when you got big speakers. haha
ill write more later byeeee

..ummm idk

im sitting here on myspace talking to my friend and wondering if tylers ever going to talk to me =/
im not sure what im going to do yet today. probly practice some skateboarding, and maybe take some more pics for myspace. =P
i dont know why ive been feeling kinda better latley but im sure glad i am......i was freakin out the past two days and i was miserable -.- ={
but for some reason right now im alright. im so happy cuz i actually fell asleep last night.
usually im on he phone or i just cant get to sleep and im crying...alot.
i cant wait for school to start. Goose creek high school looks really small and stuff but they seem nice. i know im going to be terrified on my first day. its been so long since i have walked into a school where absolutley no one knows me. its so scarey to me. ill be freaking out. but before the first day i have a testing day on the 12th and a freshman orientation on the 14th. the orientation will probly be the scarey part cuz thats my first day around all the other students....or the 12th idk but yeah w/e.
atleast here i have no reputation or anything. im the new kid so i have a new start. which is kinda kool. i know ill make new mistakes that'll just give me new reputations.
my old ones were like..emo,girl that goes out with gay guy, kissy face, or slut.
none of them were verey nice but i ignored it cuz i also had alot of friends who had my back.
i remember almost punching a girl in the mouth for the second one tho. i hated people talking about tyler....-.-



but im still a good person =] i do alot of good things too and they outnumber my stupid mistakes.

>=(

I AM SO ANGRY!! i just posted a whole blog about everything..but its gone it didnt post and i lost evrything i wrote. -_- i dont feel like writting all that over again but it was important....to me ={ ugh maybe ill be in the mood later